Happy Friday

It's been a looong time since I have posted.


But I just want to say how grateful I am to be alive. I almost died this year and it is a true blessing to be given a second chance at life. I don't know what I could've done to deserve a second chance but I just know that I have a purpose and a duty in this life. I am trying to figure out fully what it is.


I think it is so important to live life to the fullest. The reason why I haven't posted much this year is because I have been doing just that. I have been living life to the fullest and I am not so worried about documenting it. Although, please check out my instagram for some pictures of places I have been.


Life can be taken at a blink of an eye.
and you can have everything one moment and be stripped from it all in just seconds.


Don't be scared to be yourself in public, although people may look at you funny.
Don't be scared to love.
Don't be scared to laugh out loud with all you've got.
Just Enjoy Life.


Make your own happy... make your own rainbow.. make your own storms!


Don't be scared.... to be scared.
and do the things that scare you the most, those are the best....


Your breath can be taken at the sigh of sadness
Your breath can be given to you with a bit of laughter.


You decide..


BUT HAPPY FRIDAY Y'ALL!

He Tells The Ocean Where To Stop

Surf boards in the crystal waters of the hawaiian islands,

Nothing better than to lay down as you let the waves guide you

Stroking the water to get as far away from the land as possible.

The waves seem to be so rough when you’re so close to land still

But the further out you get, the waves become more stand still

Fight your way through the  hard waves of the shore

Your arms will get weak but they’ll become strong enough to keep you paddling more

Battling more.

It’ll seem like the waves keep pushing you back as you keep pushing forwards,

And you struggle to keep going as your strength and willingness lowers

But inside you lives an ocean in itself.

The power of those waves are inside you as well

And although it seems like they’re crashing against you

Crushing inside you,

Or…

Just crushing you…

There’s a power in you that holds the world in their hand.

Understand?

So let the waves crash from within, it’s okay.

Let little drops of the ocean come out from where they want to stay.

Let the salty drops of ocean run down those sandy cheeks,

Because although you are strong, the power of life sometimes makes us weak.

Salty waters weakens you, they say..

But once it has taken over it has the power to take over the world in every way.

I know you are paddling hard right now

Against all currents I see.

Trying to escape where you are currently.

You’ve gone under because a wave caught you off guard.

Now you’re underwater trying to swim up

Through the pressure of water from up above.

Where you figure strength is supposed to come from.

And it does.

Just swim through the water,

breaking it with your hands alone..

Because after all, I know you can reach the man on the throne.

He who has a purpose and a reason for the currents

He who tells the ocean where to stop.

So the ocean drops WILL drop, til they stop

So just know…..

and I know you know..

Reach up, breaking waves

Even when all hope fades.

Dedicated to my Anie, Francine Curry. My ohana. & To her loving father

07/07/2017

Side Note:

😊 Happy Friday!




I want to say how much I love having a blog. It is such a great way to relieve stress and just speak my  mind.


Also, parking at Bart was free today, so that was great! WOOHOO!💣


I learned it's always good to have a plan B ready. 😓


My jeans don't fit me so I need a belt, but I am wearing boots with heels so I used rubber bands as opposed to walking to Target (2 blocks but still.) 😒


Lunch with Tina, but my phone is dead so I don't know how I am going to get a hold of her.


Outfit and Hair on fleek (LOL) 💇


And bought my Birthday outfit ;) 💃


What else..... hmmm.. Oh yes. IT'S FRIDAY! TIME TO PARTAY! jk , hehe... maybe.


Played my first round of Foosball already (addict) and the next round is at 3 today, yay!


Oh and Rambo, he's doing great. In case you were wondering. He's the bestest <3


Have a wonderful Friday night and an amazing weekend!


Besos!
Jaqueline Herrera

Bad Habits Killed the Rabbit

Do you or do you not love my title to this post?

OKAY! HAPPY FRIDAY TO EVERYONE!


So back in July I wrote two posts 1) Follow Me on My Journey and 2) Party Week is Over. I suggest you read those in that order, if you haven't already, in order to really grasp the meaning and value of this post.


It is January 12, 2018. Crazy right?!


I am just stalling on this post because I don't know how to begin to say what I need to say. How typical of me.
 
I was really nervous when I wrote "Follow Me on My Journey" because that was the first time I made it public that I wanted to lose weight but I am soooooooo glad I wrote it because now I am able to go back and read how excited and nervous I was to start this really difficult journey.


Not long after I wrote "Follow Me on My Journey," I wrote "Party Week is Over." This post was really funny to read but also an eye-opener for me. I saw how hard it was for me to be motivated especially when things got off to a bad start. I just kept making bad decisions.

July was when I decided to go on this Weight Loss Journey and that is when I hired my personal trainer. I stopped going in October when I was hired to work in San Francisco, the commute was too much to keep up with.

I was determined to NOT GIVE UP, therefore I joined Weight Watchers in November.

Weight Watchers is all about healthy foods, healthy eating, healthy portions, healthy, healthy, healthy. I KNEW this was going to definitely be a challenge for me because food is my weakness.

It is now January 12, 2018 and I just found out that........ I lost a total of 13 pounds since July 2017!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Possibly 15 but I didn't take my boots off because that's a hassle. (knee high boots)) I know that may not be a lot to some people, but it is a HUGE deal for me. I found out the total I had lost because I went in to my Health App which I got when I started with my trainer and I saw the weight I had entered at the time.

13 POUNDS! I have never lost that much weight. I have GAINED that much, but I never LOST that much.


Thanks to WW, I have changed my eating habits and it has helped me mentally as well. I also lost a pound during all these Holidays, soooo that's awesome!!


The biggest thing for me is the way WW changed my mentality. I have not reached my goal yet and it is still very hard for me to eat right, but here I am, continuing on this journey.


Special thanks to my sister, Orlenda Herrera for supporting me and being my personal cheerleader. To my co-worker Donna, who puts up with my extreme grocery shopping at Trader Joe's during our lunch, waiting as I scan everything to make sure it is low on points. To my dog Rambo for being my emotional support and my best friend.

THANK YOU FOR TAKING THE TIME TO READ! I hope this helps someone and encourages someone today.

I'll be posting just random pictures I have taken of my food, sorry in advance for the bad quality of the pictures, they were taken from my iPhone. (hehe)










 

 



                       

-Jaqueline Herrera :)

Only Words

"Happy Friday to everyone who is reading and will be reading this post," said Jaqueline about 3 weeks ago when she actually wrote this. LOL

So, I am sorry for the long post and just keep in mind I wrote this a little while back. I am finally going to publish it because I just wasn't sure before.

Today, (as in 3 weeks ago) I want to just (try to) talk about a couple of things. I am going to treat this post like pieces of paper from a diary. I am as open and transparent as I can be but sometimes the lack of being shut up for pretty much my whole life, has made it hard to open my heart and mind but mostly my mouth to the things I feel inside. With all the honesty in the world I write down these words hoping that maybe it'll reach at least one person who can relate and mostly I am writing because writing always helps me feel better. Sorry if I lose my train of thought.

This isn't perfectly written, I may have some typos, some run on sentences, horrible punctuation but just keep reading and bare with me.

First of all and MOST importantly, I want to say that I love my family, I love the way I was raised because it has made me who I am today. I appreciate my dad so much for being the type of dad he was to me. Although most people didn't and wont understand it or see eye to eye with his ways, the way my dad raised me made me into a person that people enjoy to be around and love, someone who is hardworking, smart, independent and in a weird sense he made me strong. I am grateful for the way my life has been so far although it has not been easy.

That being said, I share with all of you reading, some of my deepest feelings today. I don't know how to start but here we go.

How I've felt my whole life:

Ever since I can remember, I have always felt useless and as if I am not good enough and I know I am not the only one who has felt that way. After years and years of not getting an "I am proud of you daughter" from my parents, my older sister sat me down and said this to me, "You have to do things for yourself."

AND SO I DID.

Now?
 I know that my parents are proud, because how can they not be? I've been doing pretty darn good for the past 4 years on my own.

BUT, that's just my family part of things.

What about my person, my self, my feelings about me, my self esteem, my self confidence, my trust in people, my trust in him and Him and me, and what about my SELF LOVE? My mind is funny.... it plays tricks on me. Telling me I'm not what I am and am what I am not. Not only my mind but there are people who try to come in my life and tell me that I am things I know I am far from.

I've had some really bad people come in my life, and when I was younger, there was no one to protect me from it. As I got older, I didn't know how to protect myself from the monster.......

and the monsters that followed after that one.

I just did what I knew to do, and that was LOVE. The amount of love that I give is too much for my own good. Crazy right?

People will not love you the way you love them and they will not do for you what you do for them, they will not treat you, respect you, appreciate you, cherish you, admire you, hold you, kiss you, miss you, please you, understand you..... like you do them... And that's life.

I have been put down, thrown down, spit on and stepped on and I stay down for long periods of time sometimes. I stay down and no one can pick me up but the person who threw me down. But the only thing they do is push me down harder as I try to get up.... and that delays my getting up.

UNTIL: One Day.....

I couldn't believe my eyes as I ran up to the door to tell you the good news I had... I couldn't believe it... "Oh no" the little voices in my head said... "Oh no, not again."

I begged for the truth..

Your mouth told me lies
but I could see the truth clearly coming from your eyes.
They say the eyes are the windows to a soul...
something like that at least, I've heard it many times before.
and now all I see is a dirty mind
and I cant shake the thoughts that you surely left in mine.
I'm pretty sure this is not the second time.
I cant shake the feeling and the hurt that others left behind
Don't even apologize, trust me.... i'll be fine.
the fact that you said my heart would be better off in your hands
I've been hurt so many times before, I promise this will come to pass
Surprised tears even came out, I really thought I had none left .
I was starting to get concerned, if the water in my body was at all wet...
Honestly I don't even know what I write anymore.
I need to go shopping for some lines at the kurt brodie store...

THE END PEOPLE...... THE END OF THIS POST....

Thanks for reading amigos, come back for more of my none sense, some sense, and for my two cents.

WHAT JAQUELINE???

IDK anymore (insert laughing emoji)

-Jaqueline Herrera